Level 3 is over.
Wait, WHAT? HOW? WHEN?
Yop, this is approximately my reaction on the day I fill in
the workout calendar for day 30… I loved level 3 so much, I enjoyed doing every
single exercise in the MS, I loved all those exercises for my bum… And now it
is OVER? I didn’t put enough of effort into it, I didn’t have enough time to
rock it and enjoy it… I didn’t… I didn’t… I didn’t…
It is like when someone you care about leaves for good –
even if it is not totally out of the bloom – you sit there stunned questioning,
how could that happen and why haven’t you told that person more often how much
you cared. Well, same here :) I feel like I haven’t put enough effort into the
level 3 workouts, because constantly there were some distractions and urgent
things to do. And now that I have to move on, I don’t feel ready. But life is
inevitable, and it is my own fault I didn’t enjoy the moment while it lasted,
so I will try to do the level 4 better. Learn on your own mistakes, people!
Lots of bumps on the way during level 3. For one thing, I
completely lacked motivation on some days– just didn’t want to do anything. But
then forced myself to start the workout and felt much better after it – at least
about myself. At the same time, I had lots of work (presentation for faculty),
which I had to do last-minute as I didn’t do it earlier (again, my fault!). And
I was smart enough to start driving school now. Yes, I don’t have a license
(still) and yes, I will have it sometime soon. I decided I am already too old
NOT to have a license, I need to do it and Germany is as good as it gets in
terms of licenses. Even though it is expensive, it is pretty much accepted
everywhere and is given without an ending date. What can be better?! Hence, I
am going to driving school three hours each morning for 1.5 weeks… All these
matters put together at the same time, I found myself running out of time every
day. Sometimes I had to shorten the Cardio by 5-10 minutes or so. And I missed
it all together twice.
Sunday was my day 30 and that was the culmination of my struggle
against work and laziness. I also made a mistake of starting the workout too
early after I ate (and I noticed, I don’t like working out in the second half
of the day – as I am already ‘heavy’ and everything aches by the evening, I
totally prefer morning before breakfast). So Sunday workout was heavy and hard,
I felt like a cow on ice (with no ice) – that was a horrible feeling of being
old and tired… And that was AFTER my rest day on Saturday. And as I didn’t give
enough time for digestion, I felt nauseous throughout the workout… Honestly, I
was nearly in tears, and was feeling horrible for not giving justice to the
wonderful level 3… My last level 3 workout didn’t give me any pleasure – such a
shame!!!
The next day – Monday – I took another rest day. First, I
needed to get some rest and sleep (which I ended up not getting), and second, I
still had to finish my presentation for Tuesday… So level 4 had to wait, I was
working till late at night and going to driving school for 3 hours each
morning. I did get back on track yesterday, and now after driving school bO-O-Oring
theory class, going to meet my supervisor and then head home for a nap and my
MS (DC done in the morning).
Level 3 has taught me a lot. It taught me that it
is better to workout with a smile than tears. So next time I feel SO bad, I
would stop and take a rest day. There is a fine line between laziness that
stops you from starting the workout and actual suffering throughout the
workout. Overcoming laziness is hard, but really really important. Suffering
should never happen. Struggling – yes, suffering – no! Even a hard workout
(when you honestly want to swear and say all the bad words you can remember)
can be extremely enjoyable and refreshing.
But despite of – or may be because of – all the bumps, I did
manage to surprise myself with results…